As twenty-something individuals we are scared to feel.
We were brought up believing that sadness, depression and loneliness are feelings that shouldn’t be shown. We are scared to admit inside we are suffering, scared as we look around and everyone else is in happy relationships or enjoying their single status. In reality we are all questioning our decisions, always wondering if the break-ups, staying with that person who drives you insane and if the hook-ups were the right decisions. We look to our parents to see if we are doing it right, but the problem is that so much has changed since they were young, and two thirds of them have been divorced. We live in a world where being ‘Facebook official’ is the only way we know if we are actually together or just screwing about.
Unlike our parents the majority of us aren’t marrying the first person we fall in love with, so how the hell do we believe there is someone else, someone else to love unconditionally. We all crave to settle down, but none of us are ready to settle, we want fire in our bellies when we love.
Most of us can’t afford our rent, let alone think about buying a house and starting a family with someone. We put everything into our careers, in the hope we will be able to afford to do those things before we reach 35. We want careers we love, we want to enjoy our jobs, because none of us want to be like our parents who came home everyday and complained about their job. All of this comes at a cost and the biggest cost is the relationships we have in our lives.
Growing up in an age where you can settle every argument with a web search, or look up a spelling of a word in seconds sets you up for failure because you can’t ask Google “why he didn’t keep his promises?” or why he cheated?
Intimacy Diaries is what we are all feeling inside, but without the fear of posting it online, it’s the candid feelings of a twenty something girl who is trying to find her way, and has made a lot of mistakes along the way, who is still broken hearted over a guy, who her friends would describe as a massive “dick wart”. Its about claiming the truth on how she feels, instead of constantly being denied the truth by everyone around her, It’s about being open and honest in a world which is all about portraying something and someone different to who you are.
I am not scared to claim my feelings of loss, heartbreak, depression and anxiety.
Everyone will deny you the truth, they will make you feel like it didn’t happen or they won’t believe you, but that’s because they aren’t you, they don’t feel like you do so accept your feelings and embrace them, as cliché as it sounds let it build you not break you.